Sometimes when I’m making a video, I realize that I’m forcing myself to have a unique opinion on a topic when, in fact, it isn’t an honest opinion….it’s just me searching for something interesting to say. That’s OK, I guess, but I’ve been trying not to do it as much.
Sometimes I’m not…
I can relate to this. I think I’m sometimes also afraid to make a vlog at all because I am overwhelmed by the idea of giving my definitive opinion on the topic, and that I have to say and film that opinion in the most refined and entertaining way possible, and that I must say it in a way that will not potentially offend anyone at all on the planet, for any reason, ever.
None of this makes me a very productive person, nor (more importantly) a happier one. Frankly, it’s one of my bigger mental health issues (as is the temptation to go back and delete “more importantly”).
I’m proud of all of my videos to varying degrees, but I’m sometimes tempted to go back and delete some of them because I don’t agree with myself anymore. It’s normal and really healthy to change our opinions over time, but on the Internet, time is different. And I worry (probably ridiculously) that by merely allowing a “public” record of my past to exist, I am endorsing everything within it.
But I’m getting better at this. And in other news: You can expect a lot more vlogs soon.